Finally stepping into the final year of high school. Its not easy being seventeen. So many things to catch up. As me and my friends went on a trip together during last year school holiday, we became more close to each other. But this year is a busy year for us and of course many things gonna happen.
I just survived through the first month and its not easy. I take on 3 jobs in different society. Its actually okay, but my friends take on important jobs as they had applied for last year.
Yes, my results aren't that good compare to them and I was kinda in the last class which is far far far away from their classes. And I'm in the same class with someone they won't want to share something with, I don't know but something like that. This make them don't want to talk to something secretive to me because they scared I will reveal it to the someone. And sometimes they blamed me for rather staying in class with the someone and not going down to their classes to meet with them. And once, they blamed me for not telling them what the someone told me and make them scolded by teacher. They'd taken their job and they are having arguments like at least once a week. They get angry easily nowadays.
I'm so sorry, because my results are really bad and I can't make it to the top classes like you guys. I'm sorry because I'm staying in the class with the someone but please, the someone is still my classmate and friend. I'm sorry, but can you guys not get mad on everything? Like I'm trying so hard to fit in you guys because you guys are talking things that I don't know just because I'm not one of those classes. Sometimes, I don't even know how to talk to you, because everything you say must be sarcasm. Why things had change so much? And I'm not in the same society with you guys that make me far apart from you guys. I don't know, I just can't meet you guys everyday like we used to be. And you guys seem so busy and stressful and I don't know why.
You know, all I hope is let us stay together in a house like how we did during the trip. That's the best. Though I know its impossible. But for now, I hope to at least gather together once a week so that we can catch up each other. Yet, you guys have so many tuitions. I kinda feel lost between you guys.
All I want is us staying together...
-Bei
