17y/o

#2016

Finally stepping into the final year of high school. Its not easy being seventeen. So many things to catch up. As me and my friends went on a trip together during last year school holiday, we became more close to each other. But this year is a busy year for us and of course many things gonna happen.

I just survived through the first month and its not easy. I take on 3 jobs in different society. Its actually okay, but my friends take on important jobs as they had applied for last year. 

Yes, my results aren't that good compare to them and I was kinda in the last class which is far far far away from their classes. And I'm in the same class with someone they won't want to share something with, I don't know but something like that. This make them don't want to talk to something secretive to me because they scared I will reveal it to the someone. And sometimes they blamed me for rather staying in class with the someone and not going down to their classes to meet with them. And once, they blamed me for not telling them what the someone told me and make them scolded by teacher. They'd taken their job and they are having arguments like at least once a week. They get angry easily nowadays. 

I'm so sorry, because my results are really bad and I can't make it to the top classes like you guys. I'm sorry because I'm staying in the class with the someone but please, the someone is still my classmate and friend. I'm sorry, but can you guys not get mad on everything? Like I'm trying so hard to fit in you guys because you guys are talking things that I don't know just because I'm not one of those classes. Sometimes, I don't even know how to talk to you, because everything you say must be sarcasm. Why things had change so much? And I'm not in the same society with you guys that make me far apart from you guys. I don't know, I just can't meet you guys everyday like we used to be. And you guys seem so busy and stressful and I don't know why. 

You know, all I hope is let us stay together in a house like how we did during the trip. That's the best. Though I know its impossible. But for now, I hope to at least gather together once a week so that we can catch up each other. Yet, you guys have so many tuitions. I kinda feel lost between you guys. 

All I want is us staying together...  

-Bei

Lonely Loser

One of my favourite mashup :)

《爸爸的假期》

Jimmy & Kimi

Final Exam 2015

In a few month, I'll be Form 5, 17 years old.

To end this school year, of course it's going to be final exam. This year, our final exam is held on the same day with SPM and we are taking our exam in the hall because Form 5 is using classes for SPM.

I'd already finished 7 subjects, 11 papers and left with 4 subjects, 11 papers too.

The 7 subjects are Bahasa Melayu, English, Mathematics, History and Moral which is compulsary subjects to take plus Accounts and Chinese as my extra subjects. The 4 subjects left are Additional Mathematics, Physics, Chemistry and Biology which is my elective subjects. 11 subjects in total.

It's so not easy to take up 11 subjects though. I couldn't read novels/books within this exam month, that's harder for me because I love books reading. I stopped reading City of Lost Souls, The Mortal Instruments because I know I can't get over it after I finish the whole series.

Let the exam finish faster and I can continue my book of life :)

Fell hard in FANDOM

I just kind of regret that I fall into books reading last year. Books are just simply awesome and books are real magic.

I was first fell into Narnia, it's just simply wonderful, its like fairytales but yet taught me many things.

Then I fell into the Harry Potter wizarding world. I never thought magic could be so real.

Now I'm obsessed with The Maze Runner series. Which the stories are simply amazing and the characters have their very own personalities.

But I found The Mortal Instruments awesome too. I'm reading this series now. I love the way the author plot the stories and the characters.

Falling into the fandom isn't a bad thing after all. I finally alive.

For now, the most active fandom is Harry Potter although the books and movies are from years ago. Then the 2nd most active fandom is The Maze Runner, because the books and movies are all heating up through the world. The next active fandom is The Mortal Instruments I suppose since they're making a reboot as tv series which will be screening starting next year. Lastly, Narnia is the least active fandom though that's my ultimate favourite. I think is because that The Chronicles of Narnia is a very old tales —I mean old literature— that less people would like, at least none of my friends like it. 

Anyway, I'm glad that I fell into the fandom when I'm still in my adolescent. Books are the most wonderful things that happened to appear in my life. 

The Chronicles of Narnia

It's like a short summary of The Chronicles of Narnia- The Lion, The Witch and The Wadrobe.

Although its short, but I can feel every moment in it and its really touching for me as a big fans of Narnia.

True Love

The one really love us never really leave us.

Just like you(BIGBANG) and me(VIP) :')